the pissed off post - had to happen eventually

Dreams by Michael Rad (Trust 30 Prompt 7)

Abide in the simple and noble regions of thy life, obey thy heart. – Ralph Waldo Emerson

• Write down your top three dreams. Now write down what’s holding you back from them. 

1. I dream of owning my own home - a spacious older home on a property that has room for a dog and a garden. And that's close to the ocean. A place full of light and charm. 

What's holding me back from that dream is a belief that house prices will never be reasonable again ... especially in the region where I live. And also my belief that I'm bad with money - I can bring it in but I can't manage it. Also, did I mention that my credit may  not be awesome and I don't know how to fix that. Ya. So no matter how much I make I won't have enough for a downpayment and for the size of mortgage payment that would be needed for the kind of home I want to have. Nothing flashy, just homey and welcoming with room for visitors. 

2. I dream of being a full-time creative writer. 

Sounds simple enough, right. What's holding me back - writing with discipline, needing a day job, not really understanding how the publishing world works. Not believing that I have what it takes (see discipline).  

3.  I dream of travelling far and wide ... often!  

What's holding me back is ... 

I'm sorry. This prompt sucks. I don't want to. I'm tired ... it's been an absolutely exhausting week and I just want someone to tell me I'm okay and I have a great life (both of which are true). I really don't want to think about what I don't have and why I don't have it. How about, in the simple and noble regions of my life, I obey my heart, love the people I love, and be grateful for the amazing life I have.